You are not the Duchess of Fife, or a fairytale princess, or a rock star, and I love you for that.

I'm not a fairytale prince, and you don't seem to take that very well.

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Don't fall in love until you're 30, at least then you can hope that the other person knows what the hell he/she wants.

Oh, and I just turned 20. Now I can get drunk whenever I want without having to visit a bar.

Awesome.

Miss my uploads? Yeah, me too.

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I bet you're wondering about that contest I was holding, and I seriously can't think of any kind of explanation that can justify making all of you hungry artists wait for this long.

So I'm sorry.

I will try to make this happen as soon as I can, but that leads me to...



I'm weak.

Like, really weak.

You don't see this shit in television-weak.

It's not like I'm sick or injured or something, no no. It's way more personal, but I'll leave at that and hope that you all will have understanding without having an explanation.

Hint:



Oh, and I'm working a loooooooooooooooooooooooot...

SORRY!

I had plans on trying to select a winner by now, but I've had my *ss full of work for the last 3 weeks, and I'm currently working 12 hours per day which leaves less energy to things like this! Heck, I don't even have the energy to eat some days, which should make you understand a little better about how much I actually work these days.

And for you who are curious about what I do you can always check out this [link]
I install refractory materials in various kinds of furnaces and such, i.e. in stainless steel factories, chalk furnaces, etc. It's intense, I'll tell you that!

I will do what I can to select a winner soon, but I can't promise that it'll happen until I come home again...

Have a wonderful weekend, I'll catch you later!

I don't know what to type, it's just a big mess in my head right now.

I'm not drunk but I kinda feel like it, like I've eaten something funny and inhaled copious amounts of tobacco while on sleep pills that just won't work.

The truth is...

I'm scared.

I'm terrified, actually.

What if I f*ck things up?

I'm shaking like an epileptic leaf in a thundercloud.

I... I finally met someone new, someone wonderful with a lot of humor, who knows how to laugh without having to lie, someone who can't cook, who's smile knocks me out of my shoes, someone who likes to play really freaking scary video games but still holds on to me when thunder roars, someone who drains my cell phone money in a day but makes it look good, who doesn't wrinkle her nose as often as you would do, someone who doesn't use guilt as a weapon, someone who might just like me for what I am.

For who I am.

And all that I can think of is that I might fuck it up.

"For f*ck's sake, it's been a year".

And yeah, it's really been a year in just a few days. I haven't been kissed by love in a year. I have not felt beloved in a year. I have never laughed so hard with someone else while frying something as simple as meatballs ever before. I've never not been forced to watch the same old cheesy chick flicks over and over again before.

Thank you. (keep me..! (I can cook!))

I can't breath, I need another cigarette...

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The Contest | The Submissions

As some (or most) of you might have heard, legendary pop artist Michael Jackson is dead according to the news channels. Apparently he got a cardiac arrest in his home and ceased to breathe. He was rushed to hospital where they tried to revive him but it seems as if it wasn't enough to save his life.

It's a big shock and a long awaited news article at the same time. No one could possibly have missed what the papers have written about MJ over the last years about his physical condition, but even so this whole thing still hits you right in the face.

Michael Jackson was 50 years young, and I will miss him even though he didn't release any new music for a lot of years.

Rest in peace, king of pop. You're leaving a hole the size of Neverland.

I felt that this was more important to me than the contest at the moment, but if you want to check it out it's still available here. Good luck to all submitters!